Frustrated

I'm a little frustrated, pissed really.  Do you ever just get cranky that you're not naturally skinny? you have to fight to lose every single ounce? That it's always such an epic battle?  That's how I feel today. I feel fat and frumpy and defeated.  I feel like all my calorie counting and working soooooooo hard to make good choice is for nothing.  A big fat nothing.  I've gained weight and I'm running more, I've started lifting weights and I'm changing the way I eat.  I actually have thoughts like "If you eat that you won't feel good about your choice so just leave it alone" PRIOR to eating it rather than eating it and regretting it.  Is it too much to ask to even maintain? Let alone throw me a few ounces of loss? Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I'm done whining now.  I will keep plugging away.  I will keep reading blogs for inspiration. The ones I love to follow are:

Minus One Hundred http://www.minusonehundred.com/
Does This Scale Make Me Look Fat? http://www.doesthisscalemakemelookfat.blogspot.com/
Run This Weigh http://www.runthisweigh.blogspot.com/
111 Pounds http://www.111pounds.com/
Lealah on a Mission http://www.epitomedemoi.blogspot.com/

Happy tightee whitee Fridee!